Living

Life isn't easy. It is a lot of good and bad things, but mostly I would say it isn't easy.

My mom shared this quote with me recently: "...in the scriptures there are very few stories of individuals who lived in blissful happiness and experienced no opposition. We learn and grow by overcoming challenges with faith, persistence, and personal righteousness." -Ann Dibb, 'Hold On" Gen Conf Oct 09.

The last few days have been incredibly trying for me and my husband. I am absolutely exhausted and feeling sick from all the stress and emotionally drained. Sometimes I just want to quit. But, I am not a quitter. I won't let myself quit and I won't let those that I love quit either. There is hope. There is always hope. Sometimes its a little bit harder to find, but I promise it is there.

Sometimes the hardest part of living is just getting up in the morning and doing exactly that, living. Some singer at a concert I went to once said, "'The most important thing we can do in the world is wake up and be a part of it." I love that, because sometimes that is all we can do. Just wake up and continue on. Life goes on and things can get better.

I am thankful that this trial has come when it has. I am ready for it. My past experiences have absolutely given me the strength and the perspective to get through it successfully.  With the Lord's help, anything is possible. Through Him and the help of His children, I have gotten through the hardest of my trials & this will be no different.

Something I am not afraid of anymore is asking for help. My experiences have taught me that I cannot do everything alone and that I do not have to! The Lord has so many different resources in place for us that if we use them efficiently, we cannot fail. All we have to do is ask. Seek help.

The verses in Matthew 7 state: "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh,receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened."

I have faith that the Lord will help us through this challenge. We have to do our part and it won't be easy, but it is worth it.

The greatest blessing that I have received through my trials is perspective, I think. I am able to think about how a person is feeling and their true intentions before I judge them. I am not perfect, never have been. I've learned that things are not always as they may seem. We can never know how a person is truly feeling on the inside until we love them and get to know them. Forgiveness is so much easier when you realize that we all come from different backgrounds and experiences. People may be going through internal anguish that we can never know. All we can do is love them and help when we can.

I love my husband and with the Lord's help we will get through this.   ...but now I must sleep! Goodnight...