Confused

I don’t know what to do.

I am not in love with P anymore, but I do love him. He’s done so much for me and I for him, but I’m just so over it. Over all the fights and struggles trying to make things work. It’s hard to throw away all we’ve had together, but I know it will just bring me more heartache and sorrow. Can I just do whatever I want with my baby and deny him any say in it? I love him and always will. I hate hurting him and know I do and will by leaving him.
I need help, I’m scared. I want a baby and will love it, but don’t know if I should keep it. No one will ever want me now.

I think maybe I will stick it out with P and make a family. I made my bed and now I have to sleep in it.
I can make myself be happy.