Alone

Right now I am heartbroken.
I have been hurt over and over again by the only man I’ve ever loved. What makes a man so angry that he could do such mean things to the woman he loves? And why can’t I just hate him for all he’s done? All I’ve ever done is offer him forgiveness and love and still the pain is there. I hurt so badly inside right now, for everything.
Why couldn’t he just love me?
I tried so hard to please him. Did everything I could and gave all I had and now there is nothing left of me.
I have felt the love of family and friends, but there I nothing like the love of a male companion at your side. Sometimes I just want to be with him for that so badly, but know it will only bring more pain.
No woman should ever have to bear a child without her man.